Healing is a Process

October 23rd 2012

November 3rd 2012

My belly is back to normal now as you can see in the above pictures. 
Emotionally I am doing a lot better today. 
I think I only teared up once when I passed more tissue in the toilet. :(

Physically I am hurting a lot more today. 
More cramping and lots of pelvic pain. Like soreness.
I am REALLY lightheaded and cannot do much standing up or walking around with out feeling like I am going to pass out or like my pelvis is being sliced open. 

Not a whole lot of bleeding still. Probably the most today then I have seen so far. 

I am still not going to leave the house much. 
I am doing very minimal house work. I can't handle much.

I spent a lot of time reading my Bible and singing some worship songs. I even wrote a song. It's pretty lame, but that's alright. Once I started to read, I felt like I could breathe for the first time in days. I took a deep breath and felt my lungs fill with air. I realized I had been holding my breath for days.

** We never realize how dead we really are until we breathe God's life into our lives. **

I am think about adding on to my tattoo an outline of another bird to represent the baby that I miscarried.

 Someone suggested naming the baby and having a memorial-type thing for him. I was thinking about getting a ring with two little baby feet and the date I started to miscarry.

Healing is a process.

Physically and Emotionally.

 

"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."

Psalm 34:18