It's been a whole year that my diet became WAY more simplified then I ever wanted it to be.
It's been a whole year that I've been battling with something that would typically isolate people, when we live a VERY social life.
It's been a whole year I've been having to explain to people, "It's not you, I just can't risk eating what you made. You understand, my throat could close. I can't risk that."
It's been a whole year and I have successfully eaten at 3 restaurants.
The list of corn ingredients are as follows:
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I challenge you for one day to not eat a single ingredient on this list. You'll find yourself eating a banana with your coffee (watch out for that creamer!). A salad (forget the dressing, processed meat, pre-shredded cheese which is laded with corn starch or cellulose) and bread (... looks like you have to make your own loaf... or eat Ezekiel Bread). Dinner? Potatoes? Rice? Meat? And what will you drink? Not any sodas or teas from any fountain beverage machines. Not even that organic coconut water that had "added vitamin C" to it's list of ingredients. Forget about most juices since they have citric acid or absorb acid... the list goes on and on.
My point here isn't to complain. When the Lord allowed this allergy to get to the extreemity (is that a word??!) it did, He clearly told me it was to "simpfliy" my life and to put away "distractions". This didn't make sense to me at the time since all I could think about at first was...
Okay, after church, if someone asks us out to eat, where can I pick up food for myself?
They asked us to their house... okay... do I walk them through every ingredient or do I bring my own food.
Oh there's a party/event?!? I better bring a salty and a sweet snack I can eat.
Going out of town for a weekend? I better find every health food store, every Chipotle, and make sure we at least have a fridge and microwave accessible...
That doesn't seem to simplify ANYTHING! I still don't fully get it, but I am starting to.
I don't wrestle over indulging in foods that I know aren't "good" for me, because I simply can't.
I don't rely on other people to provide for me, because they usually don't know how to.
I used to agonize over what to buy for groceries and how to provide good quality food while not breaking the bank, now we can only eat produce, meats, and simple, pure foods.
I've learned how to make this EXTREMELY restricting diet NOT burdensome on other people, but somehow (at least I hope) a blessing since I am always brining food to events to share.
I have to admit though, being pregnant, I have literately shed tears over bags of Dill Pickle Chips while standing in the grocery isle. I have gotten so frustrated when nurses and doctors come in with loads of medicine and have the needle inches from my arm as I am explaining to them until my face is blue that I CANNOT receive anything they're planning on giving me. I've dreaded being asked out to eat, and I've cried over not being asked. I've wanted that toasted bagel with cream cheese SO BADLY that I've taken a bite and paid the consequences. I've trusted a friend who says, "this is corn free" without double checking (didn't want to be rude), and used a $300 Epipen as well as a $2,000 Emergency Room visit...
But, my encouragement is that life is not over. I try to keep my eyes on the good things about this:
(1) My chances of cancer are probably lowering since I don't eat hardly anything that's processed at all.
(2) I love healthy eating and living, and now I get to do that without the option of not
(3) I've become so much more aware of what ingredients are in what food and how horrible out food system has become
(4) I am much more knowledgeable in many things of the medical field since I need to really research every vitamin, pain killer, supplement, or solution I receive in my body
(5) My children's diet has changed tremendously since they were born and I was younger in this journey
(6) I am able to help my sister (who recently has been reacting to corn products) as well as many others who have less severe food intolerances/allergies
(7) I get to share Jesus and my relationship with Him to people I wouldn't normally meet
All in all, I would LOVE for God to heal me so i can have that Blue Cheese Hamburger and Cajun Tater Tots I've been craving for a year, but I am thankful that God's in control and He knows what is best for me. I trust Him and I'm walking through this, hopefully in a way that fully honors and reflects Him and His goodness :)
I hope this encourages you. I am going to look back on this post to be encouraged myself what I really want McDonalds Breakfast All Day... ;)